Counting My Blessings

I'm currently reading a new Chicken Soup For The Soul book that is about Positive Thoughts. I got it thinking it might help me gain a better perspective and cheer me up. I read one story where a woman listed 100 things she is grateful for in her life. I decided I would attempt to give this a try. It's so easy to take so many things in life for granted and I know I won't touch the tip of the iceberg in finding the blessings in my life but here goes nothing. I'm going to shoot for 50 at this point.
1.  My mom
2.  My dad
3.  My cousin, Darla
4.  My friend, Diane
5.  My dog, Annie
6.  My dog, Sam
7.  My home
8.  My car
9.  My job
10. My neighbors
11. My health
12. My freedom
13. My church
14. My friend, Cheryl
15. My friend, Patti
16. My grandma
17. My marriage (even though I'm divorced, I had 7 wonderful years of happiness)
18. My parents dog, Frank
19. My co-workers
20. My morning coffee
21. Water aerobics
22. Health insurance
23. My computer
24. Comfortable bed
25. Laughter
26. Massages
27. Enough money to support myself
28. My Stampin Up card club'
29. Scrapbooking crops
30. Hobby House Hill
31. Air conditioning
32. Heat
33. Clothing to wear
34. Income tax refunds
35. Longevity pay
36. Christmas
37. Enough food to eat
38. Facials
39. Pedicures
40. Music
41. Friends blogs which encourage me (Sam)
42. My furniture
43. Favorite TV shows
44. Good books
45. Shopping
46. My wonderful team that I supervise at work
47. Job security
48. Learned life lessons
49. My weight loss
50. Sunshine

Loneliness

I feel like the dating well has dried up. I haven't met anyone new in quite some time now and I find myself wanting to call up the old ones to see how they are and I know that is the worst thing I could do.  I keep trying to tell myself to use this time to work on myself but I guess I have had too much alone time today and it made me realize that I am alone.  I do have some wonderful girlfriends but they can't feel the void completely and they have lives of their own. I've been trying to concentrate on the blessings in my life and praying for contentment because this seems to be what I struggle with the most. I have my own home, a car, a good job, wonderful parents, a cousin who is like a sister to me and is also my best friend, my dogs, good neighbors, good friends and my health. This should be enough but it feels like something is missing. I don't have anyone to share all of this with. I want someone to share this with. I often wonder what God has in store for me and I certainly should be paying for patience because that is a virtue that I am certainly lacking. I just wish I knew what my purpose was in this life.