I have been in such a funk lately. My mom had surgery last Monday and was pretty sick this week so that had me worried and scared for her but that's not all that bothers me. (Luckily, my mom is now home and doing ok) I am at a place in my life where I want to share my life with someone and I can't find someone to do that with. I have met so many men lately and I always leave so disappointed. I met Bachelor # 15 the other night. This guy was very conceited and spent the entire time talking about himself, his job, his money and kept talking how absurdly he is paid for such an easy job. I really just wanted to slap him. He said most women are looking for a sugar daddy and I wanted to point out that if he didn't talk about all of his money, then maybe they wouldn't get that idea. It amazes me how many of these men are so clueless.
I have written in previous posts that I have become friends again with Bachelor # 5 again. Well, I don't think this is going to work out. I really had high hopes for this because he is a sweet guy or at least I thought so. He keeps blowing me off whenever I ask him if he wants to get together. I've been asking him for a couple of weeks if he wanted to go see the new Harry Potter movie with me next week because I have an extra ticket. He wouldn't commit each time I asked him. He said he didn't have anything going on but didn't want to make plans yet because something might get in the way. Well, I asked him again today and he just said "sorry, I have other plans". He should have just told me he didn't want to go rather than wait to see if something better came along. I am so tired of being "pooped" on. I don't think a true friend would do this to someone. I guess he was just getting what he wanted from me and I let him use me. It has really just blown my self-esteem lately and I have just boosted his ego by asking him to get together over and over. I even called him out on his ego and he said it's because of us women who have made him that way. Bah! I finally had to deflate him a little this week and be truthful with him.
I'm talking to a couple of other men from online but I'm afraid to put any kind of real effort into it because I am so afraid it will turn out like all the others. I still have hopes for finding "the one" though. I'm just so tired of being alone and rejected.
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