Online Dating...

I feel like my mind is all over the place on what I want to write about. I want to talk about my wonderful family, my fabulous friends, my weight loss stuggles and accomplishments, my feelings about myself, etc but what is weighing on my mind now is my venture into online dating this past summer.
Back in the spring, as I had lost quite a bit of weight, I decided I was tired of sitting home alone because, after all, it had been 6 years since my divorce and I hadn't had a conversation with a man in all that time. I was building self-confidence and thought it was time to put myself out there.
I signed on with a couple of free online dating sites, built a profile, and started looking at different mens profiles while trying to decide what I was looking for in a man. This is actually really hard to do for me. I have discussed this with several women and they told me that rather than decide what I want to find in a man, I need to decide what the dealbreakers would be for me instead. I'm still working on this. :(
I had my first "meeting/date" back in June with Bachelor #1. I'll be nice and not use names to protect these potential "matches", even though some do not deserve it.
Bachelor #1 wanted us to meet at Outback for dinner when I would have preferred to have just met for coffee or a drink. I was very nervous about this first meeting because I hadn't been on a date in so long, I still saw myself in a negative light and I was scared to death that he would be disappointed in me when he saw me, even though he had seen pictures of me on my dating profile. Since I was so inexperienced, I went along with what he wanted to do instead of speaking up for myself.  He showed up, we sat down at our table and started chatting. He wanted to know quite a bit about me and things were going ok. He then started asking me really personal questions of a sexual nature and wanted us to go back to one of our houses to "visit" some more. I honestly was not really attracted to this man and for sure wasn't ready for anything so I declined and told him we were just fine with visiting at the restaurant. By the way, did I mention that this man didn't really work? He said he worked at Walmart as a stocker but as he talked, I didn't think he worked much and he pretty much said he worked when he wanted to and if he didn't feel like it, he just wouldn't go and probably wouldn't stay with this job for much longer.  Since he lacked some work ethic, he couldn't understand why I was ready to go home since it was a work night. I went home and thought about it all and wondered if it was just me being too negative or nervous or if he was the problem. A couple of days later, I texted him to see if he wanted to meet for coffee. He agreed and we met at a Starbucks but luck would have it, the air was out in the building so we ended up going to Red Lobster for dinner. We didn't have nearly as much to talk about this evening and of course, he invited me back to his place to see his "tv". I declined and I could tell he was irritated by this. I ended up calling an end to the evening and asked him to take me back to my car and this was it with him. I was a little discouraged after this but a friend told me to not give up because I was learning the ropes and it would be good for me because I had so little dating experience.   Let me just say, after a summer of online dating, I feel like I could write a short book on it now! lol 
Next up...Bachelor # 2!