Online dating continued...Bachelor #2

I met Bachelor #2 back in June. We had emailed back and forth a couple of times and then started texting and decided to meet for coffee one Saturday morning. He wanted to meet at like 7:00am because he wanted to take his dogs running but I stalled it until 8:00am. This was way early! Anyway, we met at Starbucks and he was a great guy. I felt so comfortable talking to him and it felt like we had known each other a long time. We had a nice chat and asked if I wanted to go with him to run his dogs in the country. He even offered for me to drive seperate so I would feel safe and said he would understand if I wanted to call my mom to let her know where I was going to be for safety reasons. We took his dogs out and he and I just walked and talked and got to know each other. He then asked if I wanted breakfast so we ended up going to McD's and by now I was smitten.  Anyway, we became friends and hung out again but I was never sure if he was interested in me romantically or just as a friend. Well, one night I invited him over for dinner and he ended up kissing me before he left. Unfortunately, the next day he emailed me to tell me he didn't feel a spark but wanted to be friends. I was crushed but tried not to let him know and agreed that I was fine with friends.  We continued to hang out most every weekend, at least for a little while, but then I started to feel taken advantage of. I felt like I was making some sacrifices that weren't appreciated. He ended up asking to borrow money from me to pay a utility bill and because I am so gullible sometimes and still had feelings for him, I loaned him the money. I ended up being very resentful and angry at myself over this and told him. He didn't understand why I was upset and I told him that I felt used. He apologized and said he would pay it back in a couple of days. Anyway, we ended up having a falling out and ended our friendship after 6 weeks. I did get my money luckily. I'm still sad over this one because I really did care about him as a friend and I miss his friendship sometimes. In fact, I broke down and sent him an email a while back just to see how he was but I could tell by his short responses that he is still upset at me so I just let that one go.  Oh well, back to the drawing board.