Bachelor #8 was an odd sort of man. I asked him if he wanted to meet for coffee or an adult beverage and he said he didn't drink coffee. I suggested the bar at BWW and we met there. He ordered a soft drink because he doesn't drink so I felt a little uncomfortable that I had chosen a bar. He didn't have a lot to say and his answer to most of my questions was that he just likes to "chill". He then started analyzing everything that I said and wanted to break it all down and be philosophical and it literally wore me out. I finally asked him what happened to normal conversation like what kind of movies do you like, etc. I ended up finally telling him I had to go and he sat there like a lost little boy. I never spoke to him again. Bachelor # 9 I started talking to and we just decided to meet for coffee that night so I didn't know much about him. Well, I hated him. He was cocky and arrogant and bragged about what a great roof salesman he was and he tried to harass me about buying a roof. I ended up leaving kind of pissed off after meeting him.
Bachelor #10 seemed like a nice enough man while I was talking to him online but I totally disliked him from the moment of seeing him. He was late for our meeting, he didn't want to pay for my coffee and wanted to question me on my views on how quickly I should start paying for things. He knew I had weight loss surgery and started telling me about a female roommate he has who has lost a lot of weight and was talking about how ugly her body is now with sagging boobs and a saggy butt. He then looked me up and down and said I didn't seem to have any problems. What a pig. He then started texting his ex-wife while talking to me and it wasn't over anything important. Since I despised him already, I just got up and told him I was leaving. He asked why and I told him I thought it was very rude for him to be texting someone while he was talking to me and I walked out of Starbucks. He followed me out and I told him to get lost. He then texted me, told me it was nice to meet me and I ended up telling him that he was a social moron. He then critized me and told me it looked like I needed to lose another 130lbs. Again, he was a pig. Some of the other guys I met after this were uneventful. One I had talked to online for a few months, we finally decided to meet for coffee and he was late. I went ahead and got mine while I was waiting and I'm glad I did because when he got there, he didn't have his wallet with him. Another I discovered knew my dad and we met and had a great conversation but I never heard from him again. He was freshly divorced and I knew he wasn't ready for anything anyway but I was disappointed on this one because I really liked him. Another one I met for a drink and he told me he was a body-builder. I wasn't attracted to him and as I sat there and watched him, he would look down at his arms and flex them, I guess just to see if they were still there. He asked what I did for a living and when I told him I worked for DHS, he proceeded to tell me that he had just turned in a food stamp application and we needed to hurry up with it! Whatever would possess a man to tell a woman on a first meeting that he needs food stamps! He also had 4 kids and said he didn't make much money and paid out a fortune in child support. Let me clarify this though, I don't care how much money a man makes but he does need to be self-supporting. I have no intention of picking up with a man who needs me to support him. He can be blue collar, white collar or whatever, but he needs to be a hard working man who can make it on his own without assistance.
OK, now I come to the current bachelor. I've dated him for 3 months now. We have been having some problems lately and I actually ended things with him a little over a week ago. We started out great. We talked for 4 hours at our first meeting and Starbucks had to ask us to leave so they could close. We had dinner a couple of days later and ended up talking for another 4 hours. We continued this again the next time and pretty much knew we wanted to see each other. We had so much in common. Things were going great and we were spending as much time together as we could with our work schedules. Then things started to change after a few weeks. We got into the habit of just watching tv and not communicating very much. I felt like things were strained between us but I couldn't figure out why and he wasn't sharing with me. I was feeling hurt and knew I wasn't happy but I continued on thinking things would improve. I tried to talk to him about it but things still weren't getting any better and it finally came down to me telling him we needed a break. I did a lot of soul searching and praying about this while I was away for a weekend and I did a lot of discussing with my best friends and family. Everyone told me that they thought I should end this because they could tell I wasn't happy and they didn't feel this was a good match for me. I resisted but knew in my heart that I couldn't continue on this way. We broke up via text, which I hated, but this had become our way of communication between us. I didn't hear from him for a week but then I finally broke down and texted him when I didn't see him at church. I didn't know if he wanted to see me or not but I sure didn't want it on my conscience if he was missing church because of me. I did hear back from him and he was actually in the ER with a hurt leg so I left church and went to the hospital to see him. I ended up taking care of him that afternoon because I wanted to do it. I did ask myself if I was doing it for the right reasons and decided that I would do the same thing for anyone who needed the help. We didn't talk much that day and I went home after he was settled but I did see him again this week when he needed more help. I finally asked him what he was thinking and he felt we should discuss what had happened between us. We talked for a couple of hours about everything that was wrong in our relationship and he said he still wants to date me. I have told him that things have to change for it to work between us. He said all the right things to me but actions speak louder than words so I am trying not to have too many expectations about the future of this relationship. It scares me that we are having problems so early in our relationship because this should be the "blinded by infatuation" stage where we don't see each others faults. Time will tell.
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